Today, my little Boo told me three times that he was going “pee pee.” He made that “uh-oh” face and did the funny scrunch-your-knees-together stance. I know that he now knows he’s about to go. He knows that he’s about to go and that he’s supposed to tell me. He has a little potty at home. We go to it when he lets me know at home that he’s going and he just sits on it with his clothes and diaper on. At this point, that’s all I am ready to do. I think we’re taking baby steps with this whole potty training thing. He’s 20 months old. Most kids I know these days don’t start potty training until they are two and a half and most aren’t trained until they’re about three or four. We’re not supposed to rush them if they’re not ready, right? Well, what if I’m not ready? I’m not. He may be, but I’m not.
Unlike the first year of his life, I haven’t read any silly books about toddler behavior or development. I delete my Baby Center weekly email updates as soon as they come into my Inbox. I’ve been going on mama instinct for much of the past year and it’s felt really great. This whole potty training thing though…baffles me. I have a theoretic idea of how my husband and I will handle it and teach him, but will it work? There are a lot of other mamas I know that are going through potty training or have just gone through it, so that is very helpful. But now I’m wondering if I should I read up more on the topic. Mama instinct may only take me so far.
Part of it, I know, is that I just can’t let go of my baby. I’m having a really hard time saying bye bye baby and hello big kid. I love all of his changes–now is such an exciting time, with him learning new things every minute it seems, with great verbal skills, comprehension skills and growing social skills–but it’s all so fast. Too fast. The emotional tug-of-war that goes on within a mother really truly sucks sometimes.